Well, almost anyway.
I have a few posts in pipeline, but so far I’ve not managed to finish any of them. I’ve wanted to write all spring and started to write a little on something but couldn’t finish it and then the next time I took to he pen I started on something new that I couldn’t continue on…
I know it’s been a stressful time for me, a lot of big things have happened but I’m not able to write about them in detail just yet. But here’s a few things that has happened over the last few months.
We have a toddler now – and she let us know it! Yikes, it’s hard to keep up with all her curiosity and creativity!
We started to make room for two more dads in our life (he donor and his husband), just to try to heal from their deceit and the lost friendship eight weeks later. Apparently our child wasn’t important enough and our friendship wasn’t strong enough for us to say “no” to an overnight stay 500km away without me or my wife.
I’ve started hormone replacement therapy with all the excitement and anticipation associated with that. Thus far resulting in a slight voice drop and some minor growth downstairs. I didn’t expect much to happen, but I’m disappointed that the changes plateaued out after just two weeks. So I’m currently looking forward to my next shot and the changes that will bring.
We have a big project at work that has a deadline coming up soon. And we know people will be just as unhappy with it when they return from the summer holidays as they were before. On the other hand our team has worked our asses off all summer in a basement with no sunlight or possibility to crack open a window. No summer vacation for us this year… We’re also loosing one of our team members due do downsizing in four weeks. Work is by far the worst stress factor in my life right now.
Due to all the colds and other illnesses this spring I haven’t been able to take my arthritis medicine for six months – the time it takes for it to leave my system. So of course my knee swelled up, had to be drained and injected with cortisone (it hurts in case you wonder. Almost as much as it hurts to walk around with an inflamed and swollen knee for over a month. I’m not quick to see the doctor…)
Due to all of this my anxiety has worsened and I’ve had a few panic attacks too this last couple of weeks. I’m really trying to take care of myself so it won’t progress into depression as it tends to do.
So I’ll continue to stay low for a while until I’ve healed a bit, but I’ll be back here on the blog eventually.
With love, Fredric