I’ve lost some weight over the last year or so and until a few weeks ago I was happy about this. A little overweight lost and more importantly I’ve now got a smaller chest. Smaller and loser boobs means easier binding and my chest isn’t as prominent anymore. I look more like a dude and I like it.
The binder I use is LesLoveBoats Original Jersey Mesh Velcro Short Binder, and it has 4 inches of Velcro to close it. The Velcro part have made it possible for me to bind tighter as I’ve lost weight but a few weeks ago I reached the limit of my binders. When I got them I could hardly close them properly. Now the Velcro is overlapping completely, leaving me with a loose binder that my floppy boobs are able to escape from. The sexy look of a male, flat chest – with bumps sticking out just above the tummy…
I desperately need to buy a new binder, but the truth is that I don’t want to. I’ve procrastinated too long and now it’s urgent, so last night I went online to look at binders. Just typing in the address mad me feel nauseous and as I started to navigate around the site I had a full blown anxiety attack and had to stop. Apparently I really don’t want to buy a new binder!
Things have moved along so fast at the Gender Identity Clinic that top surgery might happen before this year is over. In my mind I’ll be rid of the binder really soon, so there’s no real point in buying a new one. But in the worst case scenario I’ll have to put up with my old binders close to a year.
The prospect of having too big binders with boobs slipping out all day for a year is horrible. When I think of it like that I don’t even want to wear them another week. I really do need to find a new binder soon!
I’ve been really happy with the binders I have now, so the obvious choice would be to get the same model a size smaller. Unfortunately I couldn’t find them in the web shop when I was looking, it seems like they’ve gone out of stock. On the other hand I could just have missed them when my mind were panicking.Then again, if they’re out of stock I have to look around for something else. I could just try to find something similar, but I could also looks around to see if I can find something else I might like better.
The Velcro has it perks. It’s easy to put on and it’s adjustable, perfect for when I have a bad day or feel bloated. On the other hand it can make velcro noises when I move, depending on how I managed to close it in the morning. Now when I’ve out-shrunken them the sharp Velcro is wider than the soft one when I close them, so it’s also scratching my skin if I’m not careful. At the moment I have to fasten the front panel at an angle and then fold it under the back panel to avoid severe chafe.
So on one side I’d like to continue with a Velcro binder, but on the other hand it would be nice to not having the problems with it. I’m just afraid that I’ll have problem getting a non-velcro binder on, from what I’ve heard it can require some acrobatic movements and that’s not my strong side. I can only imagine what my family (and my body) will think of me in the morning jumping around, trying to be an athlete! I think I’ll have to go with a Velcro binder after all.
Update: I found my current binder in the web shop but finally settled on the Cool Mesh Velcro Short Chest Binder instead, just because the Velcro seemed a bit more suited for me on this one. Now I just have to take out the tape measure to make sue I get the right size. Yet another hurdle to get over, I don’t think I’ll be able to order it until next week. Somehow I manage to suppress the fact that I need to take my measurements – every single time I order clothes…